「ksk」

I didn’t expect time to fly this fast, but school’s indeed over again and three weeks of holiday are waiting for me. Besides of this, there are enough reasons for me to be happy again at the moment, if there wasn’t something that just won’t let off the hook.

(mehr…)

Just a while ago on Twitter:

[05:57] I’ve kind of reached that point where I don’t even feel tired anymore.. … oh dear

So yeah, I’ve pulled another all-nighter without even having intended to do so, and instead of do the stuff I planned I spent most of the time thinking about various things again.

What’s bugging me the most at the moment is the fact that everything’s still a complete mess. Although I know where I should start off to get things straight again, it costs me quite an effort to do it.

Fun is.. as quoted above, I could carry on without sleeping and start to clean this place. Just do the stuff I wanted to seize for a while. And this made me remember how I used to make a list every here and then, with all the things that have to be done until a certain deadline.

I guess I’ll just pull it through until I’m able to say “My work here is done”, and then drop dead into my bed. With a feeling of pure satisfaction without anything to worry about anymore, so that I can devote myself peacefully to other things, once I don’t lack of sleep anymore.

Besides of this, I’ve somehow found a place I can hopefully return to. I was frightened of a rejection, but all I received Friday evening was something that, first of all, suddenly made me let go from that unrequited love which kept straining me for a very long time.

On the one hand, I’ve got back the ability to properly focus on something… on the other hand, I’m still a scaredy cat if it’s about loving someone or being loved – so it WILL take a while to stop being awkward. I’ve completely lost track of this sort of feelings without even noticing it.

But now let’s get to work.. … oh, dawn is here.

School is a lot of fun.. for some reason I only draw there most of the time, and it’s been a while I’ve last started to draw something at home. As long as I’m able to draw I’m fine with that.

The main idea I had at first was a completely different one (as usual), but it still turned out ‘fine’ I guess…

I think I know whom I’m gonna give this one since I couldn’t even get myself to say “Thank you”; somehow it just doesn’t fit in certain situations.

Once again on squared paper, because everyone knows how much I love it.

What for hunters means ‘Hunting season’, in my case it’s a ‘Clover season’, and it started before I even noticed it.

On my walking session back from school I’ve taken a different route, which mostly led through a neverending field of green. In a passage like this, I tend to stop midway, crouch down and look for some clovers. However, I wouldn’t really consider this as a “bad” habit of mine.

And this just was the case again. At first I wasn’t surprised when I found a clover with five leaves (which means bad luck), but the more I looked at the same spot where I picked the plant, the more of the same kind popped out.
This made me spend another amount of time crawling around there and look for more, until I found myself with an insanely huge… uhh… collection?

(mehr…)